long time.. no post. i know. lol

Jan. 4th 2011!

here`s your post. enjoyyyy *

o1.

everyone's heartbroken nowadays, but i mean, we all just gotta move on. what`s the point of reminiscing when you know the person is no longer worthwhile; when they`re no longer who they used to be? when their heart is somewhere else? do you think they still care for you, still sit there thinking about you? because frankly, they don`t.

o2.

i'll screw up. i'll push you away if we're getting too close. i won't trust you until you've proven yourself. i get hurt easily and take a lot of things personally, but i'll love you with everything i have and if that isn't enough then i'm not enough.

o3.

eventually, everything ends. age doesn't guarantee maturity. love doesn't mean you'll always be together. things don't always happen like you imagined. being the bigger person, takes a big effort.

o4.

i've become content with this life i lead, where i drink too much and i don't believe in much of anything.

o5.

just say what you mean and mean what you say.
don't expect someone to read your mind.
don't play games with heads or hearts.
don't tell half truths and expect trust.
when the full truth comes out,
half truths are lies with pink ribbons.
don't be cold to someone you care for.
indifference hurts more than words.

o6.

learn from your past, move on, grow stronger.
people are fake, but let your trust last longer.
do what you got to do, but always stay true,
and never let anyone get the best of you.

o7.

if you run, make sure you're running
towards something and not away from it.

o8.

there's a story behind every person. there's a reason why they're the way they are. they aren't just like that because they want to. something in the past created them, and sometimes it's impossible to fix.

o9.

"maybe the people who are the hardest to love are the ones who need it the most."

o10.

when a girl says i'm done; it really means fight for me.

o11.

i've never felt completely insane but i have felt completely inadequate and these feelings can drive you mad.

o12.

i looked back on us today, and i honestly don’t know why i missed you, and why i wanted you back. sure, at the beginning we were kids rushing into things we had no idea what about, but slowly, instead of trusting you more, i trusted you less, and the more i loved you, the less i loved myself. but now i’m free, and i’m not sorry. i had to get out. i knew it was over long before you said it. and i thought you broke my heart, but you merely made it stronger, made it resilient. of course i’ll never forget you, but there’s no way i’m ever going back. so goodbye, my first love. thank you for being such a fabulous waste of time.

o13.

don’t worry about knowing people.
make yourself worth knowing.

o14.

god gave us 5 fingers for a reason: our pinky is for our best friends and promises that will never be broken, our ring finger is for him and proof that we'll be together forever, our middle finger is for that girl that pushes us too far, our pointer finger is to silence them, to savor the moment. our thumb is for everyone to let them know that i'm going to be okay, no matter what.

o15.

i don't get attached. i don't want a relationship unless 

you can prove to me you're not all the same. no, your words

 don't mean shit to me. no, i don't trust you. no, i don't 

believe you. promises are nothing but empty words to me.

 i know i'm not your one & only so don't tell me i am. 

no, my smile doesn't make your day. no, my laughter isn't 

music to your ears. no, i'm not too good to be true so start

 with the truth. if i'm what you want, tell me why & tell

 me often. tell me you love me, but only if you mean it.

o16.

you let go, so now it's my turn. i can accept that, but when i find happiness, don't decide you love me.

o17.

never let success get to your head. 

& never let failure get to your heart.

o18.

i want to be the girlfriend, not the friend, 

not the confidant, not the other woman, 

not the friend with benefits, not the second

choice. i want to be the one who is loved, 

held, and who gets the phone calls at night

and the cute surprises, the kisses on the 

forehead and the i miss you's. i want it all.

o19.

 the most painful, and worst possible types of goodbyes,
are the ones that are never said, or never even explained.

I wish I could yell sorry louder than I screamed
All of those other things I said but didn't mean.

revenge is the confession of pain.

o20.

unless your name is google, stop
acting like you know everything.

o21.

Just like Barbie, always smiling even if she doesn't want to.
Apologizing doesn't always mean that you're wrong and the other is right. Sometimes, it only means you just really value the person much more than your pride. If home is where the heart is, then wherever you are, that's my home.

o22.

A true friend is someone who can say absolutely nothing to you in a time of need, and you feel better just knowing they are beside you.

o23.

There's a girl crying in the mirror, and there's nothing I can say to her to make her feel better.

o24.

Have you ever thought about where you would be in life if you never met the one who changed you completely? think about it, you were changed whether you wanted to or not. what would you be like without that person? 

o25.

you're not a player, or a hotshot. no, you're a scared-little-degrading-son-of-a-bitch, who ran away instead of putting up a fight. would it have been so hard for you to say "no, you're wrong, i really do care about you" instead of "well, okay if thats what you want" this is not what i want, i wanted you to fight for me, to prove i meant something, anything at all.

o26.

Sometimes you have to stand alone to prove that you can still stand.

o27.

"You really love him, don't you?" A simple psychological question. Not a single name was mentioned. But suddenly, someone came into your mind as you read it.

o28. 

I am tired of having you on my mind, knowing that I am never on yours anymore.

o29.

Right actions in the future are the best apologies for bad actions in the past.

o30.

He had me. He had all of me. And what's worse? He knew it.

o31.

I just got so hurt, really hurt. And sometimes, when that happens, something inside just shuts off.

o32.

If you don't like something, change it.
if you can't change it, change the way you think about it.

o33.

"You can make more friends in two months by becoming interested in other people
than you can in two years by trying to get other people interested in you."

o34.

You're not friends, you'll never be friends. You'll be in love, until it kills you both. You'll fight and you'll shag and you'll hate eachother until it makes you quiver but you'll never be friends.

o35.

I think your heart grows back bigger.  You know.. once it gets the shit beaten out of it.

o36.

I kinda just wanna run away. Not
because things are bad, or because
there is something to run from, just
because there is nothing in particular
keeping me here.

o37.

You wonder why I don't talk to you anymore
and please believe me when I say it's not that
I don't want to, it's just that everything I want
to say... I can't tell you anymore.

o38. 

You don't have to apologize because you're right. It just wasn't working out. I mean, it sucks, and I wish it was different, but it is what it is.

o39.

Apologizing does not always mean that you are wrong and the other person is right. It just means that you value your relationship more than your ego.

o40.

if he misses you, he'll call. if he wants you, he'll say it. and if he cares, he'll show it. if not, he can't be worth your time, because you're obviously not worth his.

I thought you were too screwed up to love anyone. I was wrong. You just couldn't love me. It's okay. I'm happy for you.

(House)

o43.

Realize now that when your heart breaks, you got to fight like hell to make sure your still alive. Because you are. And that pain you feel? That's life. The confusion and fear? That's there to remind you, that somewhere out there is something better, and that something is worth fighting for.
-one tree hill

o44.

every day, i'm gonna get up and live.i'm going to breathe, laugh, and even smile. and maybe one day, i'll have a reason to.

o45.

no reason to stay is a good reason to go.

o46.

To those of you who have pushed me - thank you. Without you, I wouldn't have fallen. To those of you who have laughed at me - thank you. Without you, I wouldn't have cried. To those of you who just couldn't love me - thank you. Without you, I wouldn't know what real love is. To those of you who hurt my feelings - thank you. Without you, I wouldn't have felt them. To those of you who left me l o n e l y - thank you. Without you, I wouldn't have discovered myself. But, it is to you I thank the most, because without you, I never would have tried.

o47.

There are going to be times in your life when all you want to do is lay down in the middle of the road during r u s h hour. Just know that no matter how many times you feel like laying there,i will always be there to stop traffic.

o48.

Please just don't give up on me, because underneath all my mistakes, imperfections and disappointments, I'm just a simple girl who really does love you. And I'm sorry if sometimes I'm just a little too shy to show it.

o49.

She’s the girl that believes that what comes around goes around. The one that hopes for a better day. The one that won’t give up on you. She’s the girl that’s unlike the rest. The one that spent her days smiling, and her nights crying. She’s the girl that would love to be loved. The one that looks so damn strong, but feels so weak. She’s the girl that picks herself up every time she falls. 

o50.

When you think you've lost it all
and the words are harder than the fall, that's when you find yourself
and you realize you've gotta do what's best for you.

o51.

The second you're willing to make yourself miserable to make someone else happy, that's love right there.

o52.

Broken hearts never mend, but fools never move on.

o53.

I don't want to be that girl that keeps crying about the same things.

o54.

Treat people as you would like to be treated.

Karma's only a bitch if you are.

o55.

Can you tell me the last time we laughed, the last time we had a moment, when we hated that the moment passed?

o56.

When you hugged me, that was when I really started to cry. It was when it actually hit me - no heaves and sighs, just tears flowing down my cheeks. Most people would have just given me a hug and let go, but you held on like you were trying to make sense out of all of it, too. It was like you needed the hug just as much as I did.

o57.

I don't have a fear of commitment; I have a fear of abandonment. We all screw things up, i screw things up. Especially with the people I love. I get needy, I get moody, i get distant, i want to be too close. i get confused, i don't understand all of it. but I keep pushing because i hope in this thing, the universe, there's no way I’m the only person out there who wants something this bad. if i want it, someone else out there must too.

o60.

Just because we don't talk as much doesn't make me not care. You're always on my mind.

2/15/09

well i'm bored so, here`s your post. enjoyyyy *

o1.

o2.

a part of me wants to erase you from my past
but another part of me still wants you in my future.

o3.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust and
it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.

o4.

The two hardest things to say in life
are hello for the first time & good bye for the last.

o5.

I wasted so many tears on you.
Trying to figure out where I went wrong.
Now I realize it was never me.
It was you all along.

o6.

Moving on is simple;
it's what you leave behind
that makes it so difficult.

o7.

She's a little scared to get close to anyone
because everyone that said
'I'll always be here for you' left.

o8.

My friends think I'm moving on,
But the truth is I'm not that strong.
And I've kept all the words you said,
In a box underneath my bed.
But if you're happy, I'll get through somehow.
But the truth is that I've been screaming out.

o9.

All I'm asking is don't make promises you can't keep,
and don't say things you don't mean because in the end,
those things mean everything.

o10.

Just because somebody flirts with you, doesn't mean they like you.
Just because somebody likes
you, doesn't mean they want to go out with you.
Just because somebody goes out with you, doesn't mean they love you.
Just because somebody loves you, doesn't mean they won't h u r t you.
Because people lie & things change.
Boyfriends cheat, best friends leave, &
there will always be those people that would kill to see you fall.

o11.

This is your choice
it's black and white, not a shade of gray
because when you love someone
there's no such thing as "halfway"

o12.

Against all odds, whether you believe it or not, he did love me.
I can tell by the way he looked at me,
and the way he never let anything bad happen to me.
Against all odds, whether I like it or not, I still love him with everything.
And I can tell he knows by the way I still look at him,
and the way I still run to him for everything.
And against all odds, I know he doesn't mind.

o13.

I know I’m not easy to understand.
I know I keep a lot inside and I know I’m not the easiest person to read, but that’s okay.
Cause even though there’s a lot about me you’ll never know,
there’s a hell of a lot more of me you can learn to love.

o14.

Maybe I say I don’t like him,
Maybe I say he’s not my world.
Maybe I say I never think about him,
and maybe I’m a pretty good liar.

o15.

You can always tell when two
people are best friends because
they're always having way more fun than
it makes sense for them to be having.

o16.

Let's ignore each other,
and try to pretend the other doesn't exist,
but deep down,
lets know it wasn't supposed to end like this.

o17.

I want to be the kind of girl who leaves an everlasting impression.
I don't want to be the type that you'll forget in a week.
I want to be hard to forget.
I want to have the kind of impact on someone
where they know they'll never find anyone else who could ever take my place.

o18.

Let's talk this over, it's not like we're dead.
Was it something I did? Was it something I said?
Don't leave me hanging, in a city so dead.
Held up so high on such a breakable thread.

o19.

Love yourself first and everything else falls into line. You really have to love yourself to get anything done in this world.
-Lucille Ball

o25.

you love, you die, and the wheels on the bus go round and round.
-The Bucket List

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Jan. 16, 2009.

well ill cut to the chase, here`s your post. enjoyyyy *

o1.

Friendship means understanding, not agreement.
It means forgiveness, not forgetting.
It means the memories last, even if contact is lost.

o2.

All I want is for you to know me again;
for me to be in your life, and even if it can't
happen right now, I would just like to know
that I'm not blocked from your memory.

o3.

I want you to know that I love you. I never did stop. Not for one gasping second. My love for you is unconditional & it will never end as long as I live. I refuse to find others when I have the one I want. I never doubted us, but you did. I never stopped thinking about you even though you stopped thinking about me. I never wanted to let go, but you did.

o4.

I`ve learned that no matter how much you care, some people don`t deserve you. I`ve learned that it takes years to build up trust & it only takes suspicion, not proof to destroy it. I`ve learned that you shouldn`t compare yourself to others, they are probably more screwed up than you think. I`ve learned that the people you care about in life are taken away from you too soon & all the less important ones just never go away.

o5.

Sometimes it seems like you`re the only one in the world who`s struggling, who`s frusterated, unsatisfied, barely getting by. But that feeling`s a lie. & if you just hold on, just find the courage to face it all for another day, someone or something will find you & make it all okay. Because we all need a little help sometimes. Someone to help us hear the music in the world, to remind us that it won`t always be this way.

o6.

o13.

o21.

12/19/08

sooo been a pretty crappy last couple of months. me & the boyfriend of almost 2 years broke up for good. he has someone new....i wrecked my car tuesday night so been stuck at the house...yuck. im bored so i thought i'd update.

here`s your post. enjoyyyy *

o1.

Life kicks you around sometimes. It scares you & it beats you up. But there`s one day when you realize you`re not just a survivor. You`re a fighter. You`re tougher than anything life throws your way. And you are.
[ One Tree Hill ]

o2.

 i just don`t know how we got here. Our entire relationship, I have gone above & beyond for you, for us. I`ve cooked, I`ve picked your stuff up off the floor & I`ve laid your clothes out for you like you`re a four year old. I support you, I supported your work. If we ever had dinner or anything, I did the plans. I take care of everything. & I just don`t feel like you appreciate any of it. I don`t feel you appreciate me. All I want is to know, is for you to show me that you care.
[ The Break-Up ]

o3.

When you hugged me, that was when I really started to cry; it was when it actually hit me. No heaves & sighs, just tears flowing down my cheeks. Most people would have just given me a hug & let go, but you held on like you were trying to make sense out of all of it, too ; like you needed the hug just as much as I did.

o4.

Cause everything we`ve been through & everything about you seemed to be a lie, a guiltless twisted lie. It made me learn to hate you, or hate myself for letting it pass by.
[ Goodbye ; Secondhand Serenade ]

o5.

Nobody wants to hear this, but sometimes the person you want most, is the person you`re best without.

o6.

All she really wants is a boy that keeps his promises & listens to her babbles. Someone to call when she gets scared from a movie she`s watching, someone to laugh at her, & someone to hold her hand when she pulls away. It`s not that much to ask for is it?

o7.

And you kinda made me realize
I'm nothing special.
Just another girl.
Yeah, sure, maybe I caught your eye a few times.
Made you smile, made you laugh
But you never actually felt anything for me
At least not like I felt for you.

o8.

what's different about us, is that we're friends.
well, maybe we're not just friends,
but the base of all we know is friendship.
he may think i'm beautiful, but he'll still tease
me about how he has to look down to see me.
and we may cuddle up and watch movies,
but we'll still laugh and make jokes about every line.
we may hold hands, but we also get into fake
fights that i know he lets me win every time.
he gets mad when i don't think high of myself
and i get mad when he won't tell me what's wrong.
we know more about each other than anyone.
and maybe that's the thing that makes it so perfect,
that he's not just a friend, or a lover,
but he's the missing piece to my puzzle.

o9.

just because i finally got over you
doesn't mean there aren't days when
[ it all just comes rushing back. ]

o10.

i guess i just have to accept that
you aren't the person that i once knew,
and that we aren't the best friends
that we once were . . .

o11.

If something was really important,
fate made sure it somehow came back to you,
and gave you another chance.

o12.

A true friend is someone who is there for you
when they would rather be someplace else.

o13.

I know I made a lot of stupid mistakes
in my life, but the biggest one yet was letting myself
believe that the guy who hurt me
the most.. wouldn't do it again. <|3

o14.

The quickest way to ruin a relationship
with someone is to actually try to
have a relationship with them.
[ Clueless ]

o15.

Funny how one minute you can be so close to someone
& the next it`s like you never knew them.

o16.

Sometimes it seems like you`re the only one in the world who`s struggling, who`s frustrated, unsatisfied, barely getting by. But that feeling`s a lie. & if you just hold on, just find the courage to face it all for another day, someone or something will find you & make it all okay. Cause we all need is a little help sometimes. Someone to help us hear the music in the world, to remind us that it won`t always be this way.

o17.

Some people think its holding on that makes one strong. Sometimes it's letting go.

o18.

Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that you`re a good person & a good friend. What`s meant to be will end up good & what`s not - won`t. Love is worth fighting for, but sometimes you can`t be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don`t, you just have to move on & realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Hopefully, people realize great things when they come around & don`t lose something real. Always fight, until you can`t anymore, & then be fought for.

o19.

You know you really love someone when you don`t hate them for breaking your heart.

o20.

& I’m the kind of girl who doesn't say much,
sometimes, I don't know what to say at all.
but when I do say something, I mean every word.
I don't want to be like every other teenage girl,
I want to be remembered;
and i want my voice to make a difference in someone's life.

o21.

I want to thank you.
Thank you for always listening to me when I just needed to vent.
Thank you for understanding what I needed,
for being my best friend.
And for not giving up on me when everyone else had.

o22.

1 heartbreak.
2 eyes crying.
3 words never said again.
4 hands that wont be held.
5 mornings youll pass in the halls.
6 love notes, ripped & torn.
7 days a week you'll think of him.
8 sad songs a night before bed.
9 wishes that never came true.
10 years before he realizes you were the one

o23.

There comes a point in your life when you`re just plain tired. Tired of chasing everyone & trying to fix things. It`s not giving up. No; it`s realizing you don`t need certain people & all the bullshit & the baggage they bring along with them

o24.

you can`t expect to find the right someone until you know who you are, what matters to you, & what makes your heart happy.

o25.

I want a boy who will tell me when I`m being stupid. Who won`t baby me with his words. A boy who will still give time to his friends. A boy who will tell me ‘No’. He will watch stupid movies with me, but makes me watch his favorites also. A boy who`s willing to drop everything to be with me, but knows when to let it be. A boy who will know he`s important to me, but won`t mind when I change my plans to help someone out. A boy who won`t mind my country urges, but will laugh at me when I pretend to be a cowgirl. I want a boy who’s enjoyable to look at, he doesn`t have to be gorgeous, I just want someone who I can pay attention to. A boy who will randomly bring me food, cause he knows I love to eat. A boy who can make jokes about me, a boy that I can laugh with. Someone who won`t mind when I even embarrass myself. A boy who will buy me something, something I would actually want, none of that jewelry crap. Someone who doesn`t do everything I ask, but when it comes to something important I can count on him to be there. Someone who I don`t feel threatened by. A boy who has other friends that are girls, but I can trust him with them. A boy who will know when to leave me alone when I have my stupid fits. A boy who I can just sit with. I don`t need the whole fairytale deal; I just want to feel comfortable.

o26.

all i'm asking for is one day
together. just you and me, all
alone. and if you can honestly
tell me that you don't feel
anything for me after thad day,
i'll finally let you go.

o27.

If you can look me in the eyes & tell me that I don`t matter; if you can kiss my lips & feel nothing inside of you; if you can hold my body close & say you love her more.. than you can walk out of my life forever.. & please.. don`t look back.

o28.

"He probably loves her," I said; twirling my hair & staring at them. He was holding her tight & something about the way he was holding her made me believe that she was important to him. Then he saw me looking. His grip loosened a little, & he looked down shamefully. I turned away, heart broken, & started to walk away. Then I stopped myself; it hurt less to stare at them than walk away knowing he won`t follow.

o29.

Faith
is taking the first step
even when you don`t
see the whole
staircase.

o30.

The best friends are the ones that you
don't have to talk to everyday, who understand
why you didn't take their advice to not call
him or why you keep going back to him again.
The ones who call you at 4am to let you know
they're drunk, who listen when they've heard
the same story a thousand times, the ones who
call just to say hi. & whether you're dancing
on the table or passed out drunk, they'll turn
and say, "hell yeah, that's my best friend."

o31.

i understand, i know somebody broke your heart before. but it wasn't me, who left the pieces on the floor. but, it's me out here, in the rain, knocking at your door. paying the price for all his lies.

o32.

I believe in love, in arguing, in jamming out
by yourself in the car. I believe in smiling until your
cheeks hurt and laughing until you cry. I believe in
having someone tell you they love you, dancing
in the rain, and in miracles. I believe in getting
second chances even if your completly screwed up.

o33.

I hope you drop a penny off the empire state
building, and then decide you really like that
penny and jump after it.

o34.

He was so different from her, yet in his presence she felt the possibility of another kind of life. A kind she had never imagined could be hers. A life without the rigid limitation always set for her.

o35.

You know your in love when all it takes is one song to make you think of him. And you can't hear anything except the music and your heart beating. All of a sudden you find it hard to breathe, butterflies are in your stomach, and tears are running down your cheeks, but you don't know why.

o36.

you were a priority, was i an option? i let you see a side of
me that i don't share with anyone. promises are just words unless
they are fulfilled. you knew from the beginning all i had to offer you
was my heart, i'm sorry that wasn't enough.

o37.

You know those people who can perdict when
change is coming in their life? I'm not one of
them. Change has a way of just walking up
and punching me in the face.

o38.

Once upon a time, we really loved each other, but as time went by, there just got to be all these things, little things, stupid things, that were left unsaid.
And all these things that were left unsaid piled up, like the clutter in our storage room.
And after awhile, there was so much that was left unsaid, that we barely said anything at all.

o39.

you didn't love her!
you just didn't want to be alone.
Or maybe, maybe she was just good
for your ego. or, or maybe she made you
feel better about your miserable life,
but you didn't love her.
because you don't destroy the person
that you love.

o40.

heartbreak doesn't even begin to explain
how she felt the moment he said
"i like somebody else."

o41.

Maybe I should've seen the signs,
should've read the writing on the wall.
and realized by the distance in your eyes
that I would be the one to fall.
{[ A Perfectly Good Heart ; Taylor Swift ]}

o42.

i remember when we kissed; i stil feel it on my lips. the time you danced with me, with no music playing. i remember the simple things. i remember 'til i cry. the one thing i wish i'd forget, the memory i wanna forget is goodbye.
-goodbye, miley cyrus

o43.

I saw you & your new girlfriend the other day.
I expected her to be so much more than she was.
I check out her style & the way she smiled,
the way she moved, and the things she said.
And then I laughed.

o44.

You always disappoint
me. It’s kind of like our
inside joke except
it’s not funny.

o45.

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10/18/08

2 updates in one week. woah, call me butter because i'm on a roll.

here`s your post. enjoyyyy *

o1.

Too many people get caught up in what
could be instead of appreciating what is.
Don't fall into that trap. Appreciate what you
have & who you have, because the future
can take it all away from you.

o2.

Everyone's afraid of something, that's how you know you care about things,
when you're afraid you'll lose them.
- The Bodyguard

o3.

You're my heart and you know I can't live without my heart.
- Blow

o4.

You were never a waste of time.
You were just a harsh realization
that I could do better.

o5.

You were never a waste of time.
You were just a harsh realization
that I could do better.

o6.

Sorry for the trouble that I put you and your heart through.
God knows that I'd do anything for a part two.
- Lil' Wayne

o7.

.*comment with your favorite # in this post!

-emily

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